The idea of giving Isabella back to the foster moms at her orphanage was never far from my thoughts. On "give back" day as I call it, thoughts of Hannah in the Bible (1 Samuel) and her desire for a child came to my mind.
10 In bitterness of soul Hannah wept much and prayed to the LORD. 11 And she made a vow, saying, "O LORD Almighty, if you will only look upon your servant's misery and remember me, and not forget your servant but give her a son, then I will give him to the LORD for all the days of his life."
God did answer her prayer, and when little Samuel was weaned Hannah literally gave him back to the Lord by having the priest raise him in the temple.
On my "give back" day on Wednesday, I kept thinking about how Hannah must have felt the day she gave her baby to Eli the priest to raise. I imagine that she kept a brave face as she fed him and bathed him. Then I bet she dressed little Samuel up in his best clothes, probably a special outfit that she made for him. I imagine that he looked so adorable to her. She must have choked back tears as she looked at her precious baby- the one she prayed for for so many years.
When Hannah presented Samuel to Eli she said,
27 I prayed for this child, and the LORD has granted me what I asked of him. 28 So now I give him to the LORD. For his whole life he will be given over to the LORD." And he worshiped the LORD there.
I kept thinking about this story over and over again as I was getting Isabella ready to give her back. I fed her and bathed her and dressed her up in her best clothes and a new pair of tiny shoes. She looked like a princess to me! When I handed her over, a thought jumped into my mind that Isabella's name literally means "consecrated or dedicated to the Lord". In that moment my heart handed her over to the Lord. God is the one who is taking care of her and giving her what she needs when we can’t be there. That is one thing we have been praying consistently for her~ that she, in her small spirit, would be cared for by God.